November 8-13, 2022

Vedanta Spiritual and Holistic Retreat Center

California Hot Springs, California

august, 2019.

Preston and I were 7 years into our partnership.

I'd been hearing about the 7-year itch, but truthfully, I'd been itching for years.

On the surface, it looked like I didn't love him anymore.

I even had friends and family members asking me, "Are you sure this is the guy for you?"

It made me want to vomit in shame.

Because two things were simultaneously true: I didn't feel "in love," but I also deeply cared about my partner and saw a beautiful life together. I thought this meant I was settling.

We’d both just been sent through emotional washing machines in our careers. Our vitality had been sapped out of us, and we were expecting one another to magically make the other come alive and do the work we weren't willing to do for ourselves.

I frequently felt repulsed by my partner's sexual and emotional advances. We modeled a classic anxious-avoidant dynamic… him clinging to me but trying to be polite, me feeling the “ick” but… also trying to be polite.

Our traumas were quite compatible :)

Underneath the surface, I was terrified to love. Terrified to commit. Having witnessed multiple divorces between my parents, growing up in a culture that emphasized constant infatuation as a pre-requisite for healthy relationship, and knowing that a Tinder swipe was all it could take to optimize the chances of finding my fantasy partner of choice...

It's no wonder I couldn't enjoy my partnership for what it was and trust that we had it in us to have a deeply, mutually satisfying relationship.

Gradually I started working on my aliveness: through meditation, through processing my grief around my parents' divorce, through forgiving myself and my partner for our shortcomings, and taking responsibility for my aliveness…

Through these tools, I have learned that aliveness in partnership is an inside job... and that it is a gift you offer yourself first and foremost.

This is the work to having deep emotional, soul-connection... even with a partner that doesn't seem "spiritual."

This is the work to having more pleasure, more laughter, and fewer triggered trauma responses ruling your life and how you relate to your person.

If you've got one foot out the door in your partnership, you're not alone, you're not crazy, and no, you're not a bad partner.

You're scared.

You just need some new tools to feel safe, full of vitality, and free.

In this 5-day retreat, I am going to teach you fundamentals to overcoming relationship anxiety and cultivating aliveness from within... so you can stop trying to mold your person into a fantasy version of themselves that doesn't exist (so that you can feel good about choosing them every day), and relax into your pleasure and joy. It just so happens that when you do this, a lot of "issues" in the relationship resolve... as your partner no longer feels responsible for your aliveness, and will feel more inclined to step up in partnership in the way you've been desiring.

The million-dollar question I always get asked is: "Is it just relationship anxiety or does my relationship actually have a problem?"

Usually, it's both. There are inner and outer dynamics that mirror one another, and they both need work.

Your anxiety contributes to the issues which contribute to the anxiety which contributes to the issues…

You can break the pattern.

Join us this November, and leave feeling connected, grateful, and potentially ready to pounce...

Love,

Natalie

Intention:

To teach the inner and outer work of creating BOTH safety and play— first within yourself, and then as a gift to your partnership— opening up space for your partner to step into the version of themselves you desire them to be without you having to do any convincing.

• Feel more clear about your existing relationship (or, if you’re single, what you desire out of your future partnerships)

• Learn how to ignite the “spark” from within yourself

• Process old emotions currently informing your projections (which prevent you from seeing clearly) in partnership

• Embrace vulnerability as a gift: learn to witness and be witnessed in your messiness

• Become impeccably direct about your desires and needs without the pressure or shame-- maximizing your likelihood of getting them met

• Connect with divine feminine energy through sisterhood and through embracing your own wild femininity

Itinerary:

Everyone is to arrive at the retreat center no later than 6pm on November 8. If you fly into Bakersfield on the 8th, I can arrange a pickup for you from the airport.

(Nov 8 - 6pm dinner + 8pm opening ceremony)

daily schedule (Nov 9-12th)

7am morning ritual

8:30am breakfast

12pm lunch

2-5pm lecture + ritual

6pm dinner

8-10pm lecture + evening ritual

(Nov 13th: optional 7am ritual to prepare for travels! * optional)

Structure of retreat:

Nov 8 (Day 0) - Intention setting, welcome ceremony

Nov 9 (Day 1) - Awareness exercise, intro to the masculine within

Nov 10 (Day 2) - Anatomy of self-trust, intro to the feminine within

Nov 11 (Day 3) - The dance of masculine-feminine polarity, the art of giving and receiving

Nov 12 (Day 4) - Intro to Eros, integration, closing

Nov 13 (Day 5) - Goodbyes!

Your Retreat Includes:

• 5 nights and 6 days of accommodation + 14 vegetarian meals (special arrangements can be arranged with enough notice)

• Daily solo/partner/group meditation and somatic practices

• 1 Sound bath

• Forest bathing excursion

• Lectures with study materials and daily practices on polarity, anxiety, and relationships

• Plenty of free time for play, relaxation, and long mindful walks through the oaks and rolling hills nearby

Room Arrangements & Pricing:

Note: Prices are per person, not per room.

The main house has shared rooms (2-4 people) and a couple of private rooms available.

Shared room (rooms arranged upon arrival): $3000

Single room (king/queen bed: first come, first served): $3600

Each room has an attached bath.

Photos of rooms in main house below:

Glamping - outdoor tent with 2 twin XL beds: $2300

We have 5 of these rooms available. You will be sharing a large glamping tent with another woman.

Shared showers and outdoor toilets. We also have an outdoor shower. The weather should be nice this time of year.

Photos of the glamping arrangements are below.

Photos of the meditation space and property are below.

Your payment (initial payment if using the payment plan) includes a non-refundable $500 deposit. This allows me to pay the retreat center in a timely manner without worrying about having empty spots close to the beginning dates. Retreats are expensive to run, so please understand that once your deposit is submitted, it is non-refundable. The remaining portion, however, is refundable up to one month prior to the retreat.

Please note that California doesn't so much have a great public transport system. If you need to be picked up from the airport, the retreat staff can arrange a ride for you, although the car is small so we recommend carpooling as much as possible. I highly suggest you carpool; however, I will arrange a WhatsApp group a couple of months beforehand so you can coordinate.

This immersion is a cocoon intended for transformation without distractions from the outside world to maximize your experience. We will be extremely remote to allow for full immersion, integration, and intimacy with others in the retreat. Please plan ahead as there is no wifi or cell service at the retreat center. There are phones available for you to contact friends and loved ones. :-)

To Book:

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Main House

Shared rooms:

Pay in full: $3000 USD - Click here OR send $2900 via Venmo

Single rooms:

Pay in full: $3600 USD - Click here OR $3500 via Venmo(see above)

GLAMPING TENT

2 twin XL (2 people per tent)

Pay in full: $2300 USD - Click here OR $2200 via Venmo(see above)

Your Host

FAQs

Do i need to be in a relationship to attend?

Relationships are mirrors so they give us plenty of stuff to work with— that said, no, you definitely do not need to be in partnership! The beauty of this work is that romantic relationships are not the only work where this applies on the daily. You can apply these tools in your work relationships, friendships, and family. This will also empower you to free up space in your heart to call in the type of relationship you desire— either with a brand new but different person, or calling in your existing partner to step into a brand new version of themselves.

i am coming from out of state. how will i attend?

[Copied from Vedanta center] The closest International Airport is LAX (Los Angeles International Airport) which is about 3.5hrs, closest airport is Bakersfield which is about 1.5 hrs. You have various options to get to Vedanta, rent a car, carpool with other participants flying into LAX or coming from Los Angeles. You can also fly into Bakersfield or take a Shuttle to Bakersfield from LAX and then get a ride with someone or call us; we can arrange to have you picked up for a small fee. You could also fly into San Francisco International Airport and rent a car. From this airport is about 4.5hrs drive to Vedanta. I will be arranging a WhatsApp group a few months before the retreat to coordinate carpooling.

is this for women only or can men attend too?

As much as this work does apply to men and I would very much like to host retreats for men, the current skills I possess for working with relationship anxiety and polarity are fine-tuned for the unique challenges I witness over and over in women. I do my best to stay within my scope of expertise. Much of this retreat is also about embracing sacred sensuality within women— and women tend to feel safest doing these practices in the vicinity of other women. I trust there will come a time where I will feel equipped to work with both men and women in a retreat setting. :)

what if i do this work and discover i’m with the wrong partner?

This is the #1 fear my clients name that stops them from diving into this work. Trust that this question has less to do with the face-value obsession over you making the “right” decision and more to do with your relentless fear of heartbreak and despair… let’s look at THAT. I have also never encountered someone landing on some “terrible truth” in this work. It goes so, so, so much deeper than that… it’s just so hard to see the limitation of this mindset when you’re deep IN IT. But I personally believe that when you start touching the messy places inside your heart, this will be the last question on your mind. And your decision-making will start to feel a million times easier since you are approaching decisions with matters of your heart-centered spaciousness rather than the endless neuroses available in the mind.